that one girl who use to be soo high self-esteem, happy, funny and smiling... but then slowly no one ever notice she had change... change into urmm maybe we can say good on the outside but suffer on the inside... she wanted to pleased everyone else, make sure that everyone think and praise and be proud of her like what everyone expect her to be... even she know she had to force and do it not by her will... slowly again she change and want to be a rebellious person.. but yeah, because of her feeling who wont even think she wpuld take care of others feelings instead of herself, she cant be too rebel... she started to be naughty, making flaws making mistakes without thiinking the consequences she will faced... from there she also started to feel and have the feelings called LOVE... she thought it was her way to get out from the problem she had, and having someone who can understand her better... but it just a fake dream... it wasnt helping her even for an inch... she suffering more... by right she wanted to forget all that, she becoming more rebel... but thank to god she had miracle friends which always comfort and be with her... but it wasnt all of them are NICE... some of them are backstabbers, wicked and mean towards her... but like always she kept smiling... eventhough once she really really dissappointed with all the things happening in her life... now, what u can see from her just a lil fake confident broad smile which she has always put on her face and a strenght which completely becoming dim and dimmer...
her expectation towards life becoming weaker...somehow, there is a light... a blue shiny sparkling light which she found... she thought at first just to ignore it... it somekind of bothering her somehow... but then the lights keep flashing and point at her... she try to reached when she had the feeling to trust the light.... but then somehow when she had the courage and strenght given from the light, the light itself trying to avoid her and being apart from her... she still trying and kept trying without even a flakes of despair... but for every inch of her trying, her heart slowly die and wilted... until once she feel everything she done is useless, no one even want and pleased by what had she done... she gave up for that time and thinking maybe she could live in other world which she try to create by herself... but still sometimes she will miss what had happen in her life... it is kind of she had get used to what she had experienced... but no one notice no one knows... when the time she try to tell all the people she were tired with what she had been through, everyone start to praise noticed and trying to get her heart... she completely confused... did they really think she does important in their life? but now she try to think what had happen was actually destined by god and she just can accept and try to make her life better with everyone who involves in her story... oh even what make it interesting, the ble light also one of her important companion who guide and make her believe she is soo worth especially for itself... *hopefully*
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